It has amazed me over and over again since I have been at home how God has placed certain books, verses, people etc in my life. I have felt again and again the amazing timing and provision of God. Today was one of those days. I’ve ignored this book, Sacred Rhythms, for the past week and chosen other things to do or read. It was almost like God truly led me to that book today and to this section.
We are facing a crossroads right now in our lives. We have the choice to stay in TN or possibly relocate with Larry’s job. It has been a crazy roller coaster ride these last few days and we don’t know which end is up. This is what I read today:
When we don’t attend to our vulnerabilities and instead try to repress it all and keep soldiering on, we get weary from holding it in. Eventually it leaks out in ways that are damaging to us and to others.
Another reason we are so tired is that we are always working hard to figure things out rather than learning how to cease striving, how to be with what is true in God’s presence and let God be God in the most intimate places of our life-which is, in the end, the only thing that will change anything. We’re busy trying to make stuff happen rather than waiting on God to make stuff happen.
Exodus 14:13-14 Do not be afraid, stand firm, and see the deliverance that the Lord will accomplish for you today; for the Egyptians whom you see today you shall never see again. The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to keep still.
Sit quietly at the base of the tree that is your life and begin to notice what is true about you these days. Don’t rush or try to make things anything happen. Let your soul venture out…feel the difference between trying to fix it and just being with it, between doing something and just resting, between fighting it and letting God fight it.
This is what I am sitting with today:
moving, cars, jobs, working, debt and money
each problem so big and each decision so large and all looming, how could I even begin to try and solve it or fix it?