what are my eyes fixed on?

It’s been one of those weeks where I have begun to realize how often I have berated my children for berating each other. How does that work? That in trying to teach them how to treat each other, I am more often modeling towards them how not to treat each other. And for as much as I’ve been frustrated with their lack of tenderness for each other, I am realizing my lack of tenderness towards them.

It’s a hard thing for a parent to swallow…the realization that more often than not, it’s our sin showing in their actions. But what do we do about it?
If I continue to keep my eyes fixed on the sin and the struggle,
if I continue to cling to the excuse that we are forging new ground here; raising our children up in the Lord,
nothing is really going to change.

I serve the same God as
Moses,
David,
Daniel.
Do I remember that?

But if I keep my eyes fixed on the
uncrossable sea,
the giant in front of me
or the lions licking my heels
I will never have victory.

I want to raise my hands up like David and claim
“All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the LORD saves; for the battle is the LORD’s, and he will give all of you into our hands!” ~ 1 Samuel 17:47
but more than claim it; I want to believe it and trust it.

God’s word tells us we are
loved
gifted
blessed
and we can do all things through Christ.
I want to live this and breathe it into my children and my husband.
That every interaction would be God breathed.

For You, O Lord, are my hope, my trust. O Lord from my youth.
~ Psalm 71:5

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