So this post has been buzzing around my head for the last 24 hours. Sleep has been to a minimum here as the little chick in our house has decided to be really, really fussy (we won’t talk about the little rooster either…he hasn’t taken a much needed nap for at least 4 days). I had 15 minutes yesterday to peruse the blogworld and I walked away so…I don’t even know the word.
I absolutely LOVE reading all the blogs and reading about people’s lives and kids from all over the world. I love seeing where they live and seeing a day in their lives. But what is hard, is not being jealous or frustrated over how their lives appear compared to mine. It’s hard to let go of that “the grass is greener” mentality.
My ultimate struggle is with schooling options. My little rooster guy LOVES preschool, he is not a homebody and really turns into a terror if he spends too much time at home. He responds academically so much better to others, than to us, and he is just a little social bug. I know all this. I have known for years that my crazy desire (and where this comes from I don’t know) to homeschool would never work for him; yet I read all these blogs and then feel so guilty because I can’t do what they’re doing.
It all goes back to being ok with who I am and cherishing my kids for who they are. Both of mine are coming into new stages in life and their personalities are really coming out and being developed. I’ve written before about my desire for control and the whisper of the Lord telling me to “let go” and just let things be. I know that the daily struggles are much less when I focus on the things about our day that are awesome, than on the things that aren’t.
On another note (and yet another thing to be jealous of!) I saw this post today on The Artful Parent and I am so jealous of her studio (and the fact that her kids like to do art…the little chick is still a bit small and the rooster won’t hold a crayon/marker/paintbrush etc for more than 4 minutes). Can you tell I’m all about the shelves and the storage containers? My birthday wish is to get that little studio corner set up in our house…here’s hoping it gets done!