On Fridays I write with others with freedom. We write without editing, the first thing that comes to our minds and hearts on a word given to us by the gypsy mama. Join us!
Today’s word is: vivid
I love a good sunrise. I love to see the snow capped peaks as we drive into town. I love to see the sky explode at night with pinks and purples as we drive to see my parents some nights. As vivid as the touch of God is in all of these…well more than touch, more like giant hands…nothing is more vivid to me than words.
Reading in James this morning.
Being reminded that if we lack wisdom we are to ask. But, we are to ask without doubting.
That is the word that is jumping off the page at me.
That is the word that is vivid to me. Exploding in my heart. Revealing, not beautiful shades of color, but places where I do ask, but not with confidence.
Freedom is not doubting.
It is asking and knowing and trusting that He is listening, answering and doing.
He is moving.
And He is moving vividly in my life.
I just have to believe it.
The constant refrain in my life lately is “let me do it”.
As in the Lord telling me over and again…”I’ve got it”
Funny that I would strive to write a blog about God’s pursuit of us and yet struggle so greatly with it. As I think this week about how God is pursuing me and revealing Himself in my ordinary life, I am reminded of how it’s so not about me.
I can’t pursue Him perfectly.
I can’t believe in Him perfectly.
I can’t have faith in Him perfectly.
I can’t do anything.
And He doesn’t require anything of me beyond my gaze being fixed on Him.
How simple is that? Faith isn’t something I can strive for. It is merely something that happens as my gaze becomes more and more fixated on Him. As Tozer reminds me, there is no amount of “tinkering with my soul” that I can do that will increase my faith. It is merely “a continuous gaze of the heart at the Triune God”
Romans 10:8-10 reminds me
that the Word is in Me (in ME!)
it is in my mouth and in my heart.
All I have to do is confess and believe.
All I have to do is take my eyes off myself and focus them on Him.
Faith is simple. It requires nothing: no special place, equipment or time. There is no season of life that is better. But it isn’t a once-done event either. I cannot wake up one day, declare my faith in the Lord and then walk out. It is a repeated, continuous centering, cultivating of my heart onto His.
But it is not easy. Sin so easily clouds our vision. We can easily be consumed by the things and people that are around us. But Tozer reminds me that it is merely a habit, a response that needs to be formed. That as our gaze fixes on Him more and more, those times we will look away will become less attention stealing. Sin might cloud our eyes or tempt us away from His heart, but as our habit grows, as our hearts are more and more cultivated, the desire to focus on Him will become greater.
With Thee, to behold is to give life;
tis unceasingly to impart sweetest love of Thee;
tis to inflame me to love of Thee by love’s imparting,
and to feed me by inflaming
and by feeding to kindle my yearning,
and by kindling to make me drink of the dew of gladness
and by drinking to infuse in me a fountain of life
and by infusing to make it increase and endure.
~ Nicolas of Cusa