fmf {remember}

Five Minute Friday

Joining with many others in a practice I’ve sort of given up on. Today I write again for five minutes on a word prompted by the gypsy mama. Writing with grace, freedom and no edits.

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Funny that the day that I decided to join in on FMF the word is remember. I’ve been reading Hinds Feet on High Places and it seems that is the theme of the book.

Remember.

When the path seems to take you away from where you were headed…
When the way is unseen and shrouded in mist…
When it’s too much; the voices of the enemy whispering, the constant giving and going…
When the way is filled with sunshine and flowers and amazing beauty…

Remember where you have come from, what you have come through and who leads you by it.
Engage with life and cement that in your head.
Stop and be with those around you and be in.that.moment.
Forget the camera, forget the status updates, forget the potential blog post and just be there.
For the pictures are great, sharing with friends is so much fun and “giving” a taste to the world can be such a blessing too…but it’s that moment; the right here and the right now that really can stick in your mind. When you engage with the here and now, you don’t have to depend on the photo or the blog to help you remember. Because it’s there, because you were there.

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fmf {bare}

Five Minute Friday

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I’ve not written in this space lately. It’s seemed that my heart, mind, thoughts and words have been sparse; leaving this space bare. My words have been few in my hand written journal too.
I’ve felt that sense of quiet that tends to come over at times. The need to step back and just let other words wash over me instead of always speaking my own words.

Words can tend to fill a space, that needs to remain bare.
A silence, although uncomfortable, that needs to take place.
For the words that might have been spoken to take root.
I’m learning what it means to remain silent, to let the words sink
while leading a group of women through a study filled with hard questions.
Poetic language that causes our minds that are so used to simple words to stop and think and make the visual from those picture words.
And questions, hard questions, that make us ponder and make us wonder and give us the opportunity to open our hearts up to the fear, anxiety or truth that sits within.

I continue to pray that the Spirit would fill that time. That in the quiet, in the uncomfortable bareness the room would be filled with Him.

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fmf {opportunity}

Five Minute Friday

2013 starts up five minute fridays again
a time to write for five minutes
unabandoned
uninhibited
that’s my prefix this year…”un”
so here goes…
today’s word is {opportunity}

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God has given me a life filled with opportunity.
He has given me so much of what I have longed for.
Yet I refuse to be in it.
I keep trying to move out of it.
Never believing for one moment that it’s a good thing and always waiting for the sky to fall on it.

Living in the opportunity that God gives is scary.
It’s a choice where I can walk in fear (and get no where)
or walk in faith (and go to amazing places)

The problem is trust.
If I want to walk head first and live in this opportunity that He has given me…that He has laid in my lap
I have to keep my focus on Him.
I have to remember that He has given me a Spirit of strength and power…not fear.
I can continue to move out of this fear, out of the anxiety, out of all those things that keep my hindered
and walk like Peter into the storm, onto the waves and not sink.

And even when I do sink, remember Who holds me up.
What an opportunity.

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fmf {quiet}

Five Minute Friday

Five minutes
Fridays
Zero Edits
In my new, but old space (oh those darn spammers that got me)
Time to focus and write from the heart
Join in!
Today’s word is
QUIET

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Quiet is a funny thing in my world lately.
There are days when everyone is at home, noise is blaring from the radio,
the tv, the iPad, the people in the house
and I long for Monday mornings when it’s just me in this space again. When I have control of the noise.
But not long into my Monday mornings I start to falter because of the silence.
Silence is hard.
We long for it at times.
And most of the time we need it.
Silence from the noises in our homes. Silence from the noises in our world.

And even silence from our God.
It is in this kind of silence that we grow the most
and sometimes suffer the most.
Like my Mondays when I am all alone and wander through the house and don’t know what to do with the silence.
It draws me in and focuses me.
This silence from our Lord is a waiting.
It is a place that is forcing us to focus on Him.
To grow us.
To bring us to a place of repentance.
To make us something new.
But it’s not just a silence. It’s a quiet.
It’s like sitting in a meadow and seeing a deer pass in front of you and you want to be quiet.
You want to see the beauty.
We can’t see that beauty when we are surrounded by noise.

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fmf {look}

Five Minute Friday

Friday
Five minutes
One word
write
zero edits or worries or anything
just words
join in
the word is {LOOK}

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I’m stumped.
Look, not sure what to write.
I’ve struggled all my life with wanting to be seen.
But look evades me.
I guess while I long to be seen,
I don’t really look.
I tend to keep my head down, trudging forward
and then “bam!” my kids are 5 and 9
I’ve been married for almost 16 years
and have I really seen my life?
I don’t want to spend my days with my head down
I want it up, held high
looking
and seeing
Seeing my daughter playing in the backyard, lost in some imaginary land picking pine cones
and I want to see that and savor it.
Stick it in the front of my mind and remember it.
I want to see my son walking through the school carnival with his 3 buddies.
The confidence and comfort from walking with good friends.
I want to see it and savor it.
I want to see my husband, talking and meeting new people at church.
The way he eases people into conversation.
I want to do more than just look at my life
I want to see it and I don’t want to miss a thing.

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