The last few weeks have been an absolute blur for me. I truly feel like as soon as I finished one task, I had at least 5 more new ones added to the list. I’m treading water and trying not to go under.
In the midst of this, Lent starts.
It’s interesting throughout my Christian life my journey with the season of Lent. It seems like years ago, no one really talked about it and you certainly didn’t see the plethora of articles that have passed over my eyes in the past few days. Everyone is talking about Lent now. But what is it?
It’s a season of reflection.
It’s a time of stepping back from pieces of life and remembering where these 40 days are leading.
They are leading to death…because of my sins.
And yet life…new life for all of us.
What does that mean for me in the midst of this tidal pool I’m swimming in?
We’ve been talking in our house about what to give up. The husband is giving up craigslist, the boy gave up his iPod, the chick is undecided (and a little unwilling) and I have been struggling.
My sweetest friend yesterday shared with me the best advice when contemplating what to fast from:
fast from the thing(s) that you run to for distraction.
And distraction is the killer in my life. The sense of going under the demands of my life right now have so much to do with the use of my time and the things I use for distraction when life is too much. It’s totally technology driven.
So for these next 40 days, I’m giving up my daily schedule as I’ve known it.
While I eat breakfast in the morning, I won’t be staring at a computer screen and reading emails, checking facebook or dealing with etsy. I will just eat.
During the day, when I have to be on the computer for things, I will be on the computer for the thing I went to do (answering emails, answering etsy conversations, drafting patterns etc) and I will not waste time checking facebook (for the umpteenth time) or checking flickr stats or any other needless thing.
I will do the same with my phone. While sitting at stoplights, I will use that time to pray or just engage with the people in the car instead of checking email or any other crazy thing.
And for the most part, we will not have screens after 9pm.
This is something my husband and I have been trying hard (without success) to hold to for the past few months.
My goal in all of this is not to become legalistic, but rather to stop myself and ask “why?” am I running to all these other things instead of running to the world around me? Like the tangible, here and now world.
So I am giving up distraction and praying for focus. And I’m praying for this new way of life to be established.
Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established.