expectation ~ anticipation
These are hard words for me.
Every morning I wake up with expectations and anticipations.
I am anticipating (with dread or joy) the day set before me.
I am setting up my expectations of how the day should present itself.
This morning my husband was home during our getting up and out the door for school time. We were stalled and I needed help. He was here.
My expectation was that he would know what I needed and just respond.
Obviously he didn’t. So I became frustrated.
But the issue wasn’t him; it was me.
It was my anticipation in knowing I would have extra hands this morning
and my expectation that he would just know what to do and do it.
That is the root of my struggle. I want control. I want to go first.
I. I. I. I.
1st Samuel 14 tells the story of Jonathan and his armor bearer facing the Philistines. They both go forward with the promise that God can respond and come to their aid.
That is their only expectation. That God might do what He has promised. There is no anticipation of whether he CAN, but rather the knowledge that He will do it if He so desires.
His armor bearer is clothed in armor, but he goes behind Jonathan. He can only do what he is supposed to do if he stays within the expectations of his responsibilities. Jonathan expects him to follow. So that is what he does.
Micah 6:8 tells us: He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
That is what God expects of me and what I should expect of my day.
That is what my anticipation should be.
No expectation of people or their responses.
No anticipation of what my day might be.
But only that I am acting justly,
and walking humbly with Him
clothed in His armor.
291. I am clothed with His armor (ephesians 6:10-13)
292. He has the capacity to meet far and above any expectation or anticipation that I might have
293. the beauty of the sun falling between the trees
294. a little girl who watches the leaves falling with such joy and wonder
295. a date with the man the Lord has provided for me w/o any expectations
296. children who are beyond themselves with excitement that their grandparents have returned from a long trip
297. a daughter who says the funniest things and makes me laugh
298. a husband who is fixing my washing machine
299. daily confirmation of the place I am
300. freedom in worship