A few weeks ago I found myself sitting in a doctor’s waiting room waiting for a friend who was having a procedure done. Days leading up to this, I had been hit over and again with the idea of friendships and how to love others well. That day, I sat there thinking what a privilege it was to be a part of her life – for her vulnerability in letting me take care of her.
I thought of how my perception of friendship has changed over the course of my life – as I have aged and grown as a believer. The theme of most of my friendships has often been that of Sarai and Hagar; me trying to make it work my way. But that has only led to hurt, frustration and many, many bad choices.
I’ve been frustrated by others lack of pursuit of me or their response to my often careless pursuit of them. But what I’m learning about God’s pursuit of me is that it’s not about me.
I am not going to make good choices. I am not going to love well. I am not going to pursue well; when all I think about is me. When my focus is on protection. When my eyes are on the winds blowing around me. When I am using my opinions to set boundaries.
Freedom is when I make it all about Him. When I focus on Him and not the waves or the wind. When I fill my heart and mind with His word I can pursue people despite their response – pursuing them merely because the Lord has placed them in my path. I can love them. I can pick them up, walk beside and attend to them despite my desire to sometimes nudge them out of my way, like a pebble on my path.
Like my friend welcoming me into her vulnerability – I need to do the same.