Captivating continued: removing the debris

At the end of April I had the opportunity to attend a women’s retreat by Stasi Eldredge called Captivating high up in the Rocky Mountains. These are excerpts from my journal during our the times called Covenants of Silence.

Tonight Stasi challenged us to remove the debris. To be honest and bring to light how
the great question was answered for us as young girls….am I loved?

Ultimately I struggle with feeling that I am not enough. I can’t do enough, be good
enough or provide well enough. I never got the attention that my heart was longing
when I was growing up, so I have strived all my life in order to get some kind of attention.
To show others that I am good enough. And believing the lie that I am not living up to
my best.

Jesus I offer you those agreements that I’ve made. The lie that I am not good enough.
The lie that I am not living up to my best. The lie that I have to do or be in order to get
attention….to get love.

I pray Isaiah 61
That you will remake me
Restore me
Release me
That you will give me back my heart
That you will SET ME FREE!!!

2 timothy 1:7 God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power, life and self-control
When my anxieties and fear begin to overcome me, that is not me! If I am in Christ, I do
not have a spirit of fear
and He has given me the power to deny and reject that lie.

I will not give into fear! If I am zealous for God, no man can harm me. God
works ALL things together for our good. No matter what!

Oh Jesus, how I am longing for FREEDOM.
Remove this bondage from me.

He will Break open the skies
To save those who cry out his name
The one the wind and waves obey
Is strong enough enough to save you

10th ave north song

Empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with you


One thought on “Captivating continued: removing the debris

  1. I have struggles with some of the same issues. The verses that I cling to are found in Psalm 139 13-16. It reminds me that His works are wonderful. I am one of his “works”. I am fearfully and wonderfully made by Him…for a purpose. He had a plan for me from the day I was formed in my mothers womb.
    I encourage you to put on your armor each morning…
    to protect your mind against the lies of Satan…Ephesians 6:10-18. We have Gods word and the power od the Holy Spirit to fight for us. The enemy really wants to work on us in our weak spots….But God’s power is made perfect in our weakness.

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