At the end of April I had the opportunity to attend a women’s retreat by Stasi Eldredge called Captivating high up in the Rocky Mountains. These are excerpts from my journal during our the times called Covenants of Silence.
Tonight Stasi challenged us to remove the debris. To be honest and bring to light how
the great question was answered for us as young girls….am I loved?
Ultimately I struggle with feeling that I am not enough. I can’t do enough, be good
enough or provide well enough. I never got the attention that my heart was longing
when I was growing up, so I have strived all my life in order to get some kind of attention.
To show others that I am good enough. And believing the lie that I am not living up to
Jesus I offer you those agreements that I’ve made. The lie that I am not good enough.
The lie that I am not living up to my best. The lie that I have to do or be in order to get
attention….to get love.
I pray Isaiah 61
That you will remake me
That you will give me back my heart
That you will SET ME FREE!!!
2 timothy 1:7 God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power, life and self-control
When my anxieties and fear begin to overcome me, that is not me! If I am in Christ, I do
not have a spirit of fear and He has given me the power to deny and reject that lie.
I will not give into fear! If I am zealous for God, no man can harm me. God
works ALL things together for our good. No matter what!
Oh Jesus, how I am longing for FREEDOM.
Remove this bondage from me.
He will Break open the skies
To save those who cry out his name
The one the wind and waves obey
Is strong enough enough to save you
10th ave north song
Empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with you