loose in the garden

Anyone who has been on a retreat knows that those first few days back in the “real world” can be hard. Spending a weekend bathed in prayer by intercessors and friends and covered in good teaching is so refreshing for a soul, but it is the days following that are the true test.

We were warned and reminded of this our last session this weekend. I knew it was coming. I had been followed at my heels on the front side of this retreat and knew full well it wouldn’t stop when I got home. Then we got on the airplane and it was the roughest, scariest ride I’ve taken. I was livid…I had not even gotten home yet and I was terrified. Fears and Anxieties didn’t creep back in but stormed into my soul. But we landed, I hugged my family and all was well.

Until this morning. It was as if the Lord had been gently nudging me for days about my thoughts, about what I was doing or trying to do. The old ways that were returning. They seemed so natural that I didn’t even think twice. I was deceived.

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. ~ I Peter 5:8

I don’t know how many conversations I’ve had about this verse in the last couple of days, but not once did I apply it to myself. I’ve spent that last couple of days trying to figure out, plan and control things that the Lord has not seen fit to reveal. I left for this retreat rather at peace about the future and returned an easy target.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. ~ John 14:27

Thank You Jesus for your sweet nudging.
Thank You for Your Scripture that speaks so clearly to my soul.
Thank You for Your peace.
Forgive me for not resting, fully resting in Your provision.
Thank You that my heart is Yours and You hold it.
May I step forward with a heart that is open.

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