I am probably the last person on earth, but I have finally started reading The Lord of the Rings trilogy. I tried a few years ago and even tried to watch the movies, but I just couldn’t get into it. This time around, I am totally sucked in. I am just about done with the first book and as my heart is beginning to really prepare for this trip, I am realizing how God is using even these books to speak to me.
I knew this week would be a challenge. When my husband left for his big retreat a few weeks ago, we had a tough week. Fears were creeping in…old anxieties were running rampant and the day before he left we had car trouble.
This week is proving to be no different. Car trouble, big projects at work, a very dirty house, the end of our monthly budget, sweet friends are hurting and storms are brewing and predicted.
Many anxieties creeping in.
It kind of hit me this morning…Satan is kind of like Gollum. He is creeping behind me, trying to be silent, trying to get at what is most precious to me and this week his feet are pattering right at my heels.
He knows this weekend is life changing.
Even more so coming off of a celebration of the resurrection of Jesus.
His attack is going to have to be stronger.
But I am ready.
…let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. ~ Hebrews 12:1-2
This week, I am fixing my eyes steady on Jesus. I am focusing on where I need to go. The task ahead may be frought with peril and joy (the deep darkness of Moria or the beauty and safety of Lorien), but no matter who patters behind me
He goes before me.
118. the race before me
119. my God in front of me
120. a husband who supports me
121. a friend who loves me
122. children who show me my sins but love me anyway
123. peace giving words the morning after Easter
124. a God who works all things for His good (and mine)
125. being able to stand and listen to a friend who is hurting
126. neighbors who love my children
127. anxieties that are finding their way out
128. the reminder to be thankful