Modern life offers many luxurious ‘perfumes’ to cover up the smell of eternal death. When we are enjoying our favorite foods and entertainments, it can be easy to forget the decay of sin and death all around us. Lent helps us to remember that there is only one who actually reverses decay – the God who raises the dead. ~T. G. Walton
I’ve kind of had one of those weeks last week that I didn’t really know which end was up…hence the lack of posting. I really felt very muddled about things and after feeling so clearly about so many other things lately, it made for a troubled week. I read a bunch last week and studied different things, but it’s as if nothing really penetrated me. I was honestly really frustrated and later in the week when an opportunity presented itself, I was really confused about how to respond. It is amazing how much clearly you think when you have been in fellowship with others & when you have been in fellowship with God’s word and very little of that was truly happening last week.
Even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept hoping – believing that he would become the father of many nations. For God had said to him, “that is how many descendants you will have!” And Abraham’s faith did not weaken, even though, at about 100 years of age, he figured his body was as good as dead – and so was Sarah’s womb. Abraham never wavered in believing God’s promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever he promises.
I had a lot of moments last week where I really decided I didn’t want to go on this big retreat to Colorado. I can tell you that the Lord wants me there. I know it. But last week, in the midst of just being so tired and worn under, I just thought I can’t do it. I can’t get my house in order to go. I can’t get myself in order to go. The ducks just weren’t going to get in a row!
But you are not controlled by your sinful nature. You are controlled by the Spirit if you have the Spirit of God living in you. ~ Romans 8:9
But on Monday, as I started my week. As I tried to enter softly and easily into this week, I began to finally hear His still quiet voice reminding me that
He is in me
and He that is in me is greater than anything that He might ask of me
or anything that might fly into my path
So, today I continue to count the gifts He has given me:
101. dogwood blossoms floating outside my window
102. rosy cheeks on my boy as he completes his acting debut
103. a snug hug from my little chick
104. family that comes from near and far to watch my little man
105. words that penetrate into the darkness of my sin
107. the Spirit that is in me and drives out my fears